Just.... Wrong
I watched one of the most disturbing things I've ever seen tonight. I can't even process it. Tonight's episode of Criminal Minds freaked me out on so very many levels. Some people are sick and wrong and I cannot believe the things they are capable of.
All my life I have been very sensitive to TV shows or movies or anything - fact or fiction - showing harm (or even possible harm) come to a child or an animal. It's the only thing I really cannot handle. Watching scary movies or violence, all I can think is "don't hurt the kids" or "I hope the puppy is okay." Pathetic really, but I never could have guessed how intensified that feeling would be when I finally had a child of my own. (Yes, even having dogs of my own increased that feeling for animals, I should've seen it coming with a kid.) I know I can't live a life of paranoia but good hell! How can one not? Sure, the show tonight was fiction but the stories, the concepts, ideas, topics - ugh - they're so real. And so discouraging and disappointing and disenchanting of the human race.
I think a small bit of paranoia can be healthy, just being conscious of what's out there - you know, the saying "better safe than sorry." I know not all people are bad and I am sure, on the whole, most people are good people. I know I need to look for and find the good in people. And I do. But that doesn't mean I don't acknowledge the bad out there.
I just hope I can raise my child to be a good person and to see the good in people ... and not trust a damn one of 'em.