The Child is Trying to Kill Me
Before we left for Utah she was sleeping. A little bit. Certainly not through the night, but she was only waking up three-ish times and was easy to get back to sleep. Then we went to Utah. She hardly slept at all at night while we were there. I figured getting her home and back to her own bed would help and after a few nights, everything would be fine again. HA!
She’s been impossible at nights. And while usually it’s the fussy “I’m so tired but how DARE you suggest I go to sleep” fight, last night was a whole different ballgame. Last night, after weeks of not sleeping, I was exhausted. Falling asleep in the chair at 7:00 PM exhausted. I figured I’d try to get to bed at a decent hour and see if that would help her get a little more sleep through the night. We went to bed around 10:00 and by 12:30 I had taken her into her dad’s room, plopped her on the floor with her toys and told Dan, “Bring her to me when she finally decides she’s tired.” I went back to bed and tried to sleep through her screeches coming from down the hall. Not screams. No. She wasn’t upset. Screeches of sheer delight that she won and now got her toys to play with, not just her hands and feet like what she had in the bed with mean ole’ Mommy.
It seems if I let her stay up VERY late and then put her to sleep, it’s a lot better on both of us. Dan brought her in shortly after 1:00 because she was yawning. Right to sleep. ARG! Though, of course she didn’t stay that way. She’s been waking up so often at night lately and never easily or quickly going back to sleep like before. By the time the alarm goes off in the mornings, I feel like I’ve just barely gotten to sleep. (Because, of course, she sleeps the soundest after 6 AM.)
So my days drag. All I wanna do is get home and try to sleep – knowing she won’t let me. The commute has been horrible. I can barely stay awake. I’m like a mindless drone just trying to get through the day. It’s awful. I’m sure I’m just a delight to deal with as well. Someday, when I wake up, I’ll actually start posting more regularly. And maybe even get her Seven Month post up here. Someday. If I ever wake up.
being kept awake at night by this cuteness??